{Hidden Baby Chronicles} 11 Weeks - A Lime

May 29, 2014

A good week! Only three weeks left in the first trimester, AND we had another ultrasound and got to see our little lime bouncing around like a jumping bean! 
 

Photo Thoughts: I'm finally willing to show my bloat a little bit.  I'm still pretty sure that's about 90% bloat/10% the roundness of my tummy I've always had.  But whatever, there it is.  Also, this lime was a little bigger than the given 1.6 inches for this week, but who has ever seen a lime that small anyway?

How I'm Feeling:  Still really good and mostly normal.  I definitely felt a huge amount of relief when we saw the baby alive and kicking (even bouncing) at the ultrasounds this week.  More on that later. 

Baby/Bump: This week our jumping bean is the size of a lime!  I just looked back at my first post, and was shocked to see that what is now a lime started out the size of a poppy seed!  A lime was still seeming pretty small to me before, but now I realize just how much growth has already happened.  The baby is 1.6 inches and weighs 0.25 oz.  Our lime is doing lots of moving in there now- which we got to see at the ultrasound- so wild!  Also, tooth buds, hair follicles, and nail beds are forming already. 

Symptoms:  Still very few symptoms, but I am finally feeling much less paranoid about that since the ultrasound.  I know how lucky I am to be feeling this good.  The few minor symptoms that I'm still having are: belly bloat, and waking up once per night to pee still.  It seems like my general food indifference in the evenings has returned somewhat.  I sit down to dinner and am just not all that interested in eating.  I've also been feeling a few minor cramps throughout the week/round ligament pain- whatever they call it.  Oh, and even though I'm drinking a TON of water throughout the day, when I wake up first thing in the morning, I am always extremely thirsty!

Weight: +3.5 which is down 0.5 from last week.  Yay?...

What I'm Anticipating: David and I finally decided that we would tell his family our big news on Father's day weekend, so I'm already getting excited/anxious/nervous about that.  This also means that around that same time, I will tell the rest of my immediate family.  After that is all done, then we will move onto telling extended family and close friends.  We will deal with social media at some point after that. 

What I'm Stressing About/Worries:  Just like I was nervous about telling my parents our news (for no reason really), I am also now nervous about the next round of "reveals."  Don't get me wrong, I'm excited, too!  But for some reason, it really gives me some anxiety. I know it will be fine though, and really fun and exciting even!

I'm also a little bit nervous about going back for my follow-up appointment with my OB (my ultrasound was just with a tech).  At this appointment, I will get the results of the nuchal translucency screening and my blood work.  I'm trying not to think about it too much just yet though. 

Diet/Cravings/Aversions:  I brought salads for lunch at work each day this past week, and I literally was choking them down.  It wasn't making me nauseous or anything, but each day they just seemed totally unappealing to me.  I made it happen though! 

Sleep: Best thing ever.  Still really weird dreams, still waking up once a night, and still really hard to get out of bed. 

Exercise:  Really proud that I'm still sticking to 6 days a week.  Although I'm definitely having to take more frequent breaks than in the past. 

Movement:  WAYYYYY too early for me to feel this, BUT it was so so cool to SEE so much movement at the ultrasound! 

Boy or Girl: Too early to know, of course.  BUT, this is kind of interesting.  For as long as I can remember (even when I was growing up), whenever I thought about having kids in the future, I automatically thought girls.  Not that I don't want a boy- I'd love to have BOTH!  But that's just what my mind automatically envisioned- girls.  I think some of that may have to do with having tons of girl cousins and all the babysitting I did in middle school and high school for a family with three girls, and I loved those sweet girls.  BUT during our ultrasound, within just a minute or two of seeing the baby on the big screen, I had this inexplicable instinct of, "that's a boy."  It was so strange, but it was definitely an overwhelming "boy" feeling.  Mother's instinct?  Maybe, maybe not.  We will see eventually!

Highlights of the Week: FIRST TRIMESTER ULTRASOUND!  Best day ever!  Our appointment was on Thursday morning.  They called us back right away, we met the ultrasound technician who was very nice, and she got us situated in the coldest room ever.  We were both freezing the entire time!  Luckily, we were distracted from the cold for the most part.  They had a pretty sweet setup, with a big screen TV mounted on the wall so we could see what was on the tech's screen on the the TV screen. 

I didn't actually get nervous until she put the little wand on my stomach and turned the machine on.  Then the butterflies immediately kicked in.  I had been so nervous about my lack of symptoms that I had pretty much convinced myself that we would see nothing or that she would immediately have bad news to deliver.  And actually, it did take her (what seemed like) a long time to find anything, and when she did find the baby, it was just absolutely still at first.  My heart sank.  And David later told me that he thought the same thing at first.  But it wasn't long before the baby was seriously bouncing all over the place!  HUGE relief at that point!  I really was not expecting to see so much movement.  It was so fun to see though!  He/she was bouncing around all over the place, kicking his/her feet, rolling around, and even waving his/her little hands at us.  The tech has some trouble getting the baby to stay in the right position to get the measurements that she needed, so she had me roll onto my side a couple of times.  I could have watched all day!  We got to hear the heartbeat for the first time too- which was incredible!  His/her heart was beating away at 182 bmp- that was so surreal to hear!  It sounded like a helicopter or horses running.  I wish we would have thought to get a video of that so we could replay the sound. 

After the tech got what she needed, she gave us a printed photo, and we even got a disk with multiple photos from the ultrasound and even a few video clips.  Then a nurse came and took my blood, and that was it. 

I still can't believe that I have a bouncing, squirming, kicking, lime-sized human being in my belly!  Pregnancy is seriously wild... and surreal.  But so amazing! 

{Hidden Baby Chronicles} - 10 Weeks - A Prune/Kumquat

May 22, 2014

Wahoo! Double digits!  Things are moving right along.  I'm still really willing these first trimester weeks to pass quickly... I just really want to get to the second trimester and feel a little more comfortable with things most likely being OK. 

Photo Thoughts: Yet another flowy "disguise the bloat" shirt.  BUT, you can tell by where my hand is that my tummy is definitely growing.  Also, the "fruit of the week" is finally starting to get big enough to actually kind of see in the photos!  And as my face may reveal in the last photo, I have mixed feelings about my new "belly belt."  Sigh...

How I'm Feeling: Still pretty darn normal.  And this continues to freak me out.  Actually even more so this week.

Baby/Bump: This week our baby is the size of a prune.  I'm apparently already taking up the parent habit of thinking my baby is way cuter than others do, because I just couldn't deal with using a prune comparison this week.  I had to consult an alternative website that used a kumquat for size comparison.  Much better/cuter!  Baby is 1.2 inches long.  Little kumquat now has working joints and its organs are now fully developed and starting to function.  Also, hair and fingernails are starting to appear.  Crazy, hairy little kumquat!

Symptoms: Broken record again.  Very few of the typical 1st trimester symptoms that you hear about.  I know I am very lucky to be feeling so great, but it really just throws me off.  In fact, the few symptoms that I was having actually seemed to lessen this week.  Which really threw me into a tizzy.  I'm not having the slight nausea/indifference to food in the evenings anymore, not getting dizzy as much, haven't had any cramping for quite a while now.  All I'm really left with is the lovely BLOAT.  It takes a lot of mental effort to convince myself that just because I'm not having many symptoms doesn't mean something is wrong. Easier said than done though. 

Weight: + 4.  ACK!  Slow down weight gain!!  I've actually been doing really well with watching what I eat (or so I thought). 

What I'm Anticipating: I'm so anxious for my next OB appointment.  One week from today!  I am really hoping that I can calm the eff down after that. 

What I'm Stressing About/Worries: This week I got extra worried about my lack of symptoms and the fact that the ones I did have seemed to actually be lessening.  This pregnancy this can be a total mind game, people!  My mom got to listen to me go on and on about it for quite a while a couple days ago.  It felt good to just vent.  I also talked to David about it, and he actually made me feel a lot better.  Sometimes he's not the best at comforting me when I'm being emotional or unreasonable... he's just so typical engineer in his thought processes that I think it's hard for him to reason with me when I get like that.  But in this case, he pulled though and gave me some really good advice/encouragement, and I felt so much better afterwards.  He basically told me, "focus on the facts.  The facts that you have now are: 4 positive pregnancy tests, a beautiful ultrasound, and we even saw the heart beating away.  Those are the facts, and they all seem to mean that you have nothing to worry about."  His advice was so engineer/logical minded- I love it.  And he's absolutely right.  So I'm trying to just focus on the facts that I do have and not get caught up in all my hypothetical situations and worries. 

What I'm Missing:  This weekend was the first time I missed having a glass (or 3) of wine on Saturday evening while we relax on the couch and watch TV.  So I poured some fancy, bubbly fruit juice drink into a wine glass and tried to enjoy that.  It actually wasn't too bad, and did the trick... kind of. 

Sleep: Sleep is good.  So good.

Exercise:  Still sticking strong to my 5-6 days a week workout schedule.  Which makes me even more frustrated at the fact that I've gained 4 pounds already.  Oh well...

Movement: WAY too early for this.  Although supposedly, the baby has begun wiggling his/her arms and legs already.  Crazy!  And its little hands now meet over its heart- awwwww!

Boy or Girl: Also WAY too early for this.  But yes, we will find out when that time comes.

Milestones: For baby: vital organs are formed and starting to function!  For me: I had my first visit to a maternity store.  I had been doing some research on belly bands and belly belts, and I wanted to see some in person before I made my decision.  It was so odd to walk in there... especially without a bump to "prove" that I belong in there.  But the sales lady who helped me was so nice and answered a ton of questions for me.  I ended up with a belly belt, which should hopefully help me make my pants/shorts last me some more weeks before needing to buy any full on maternity pants.  It's basically like a bra extender that just lets you have more space around the waist band of your pants.  And actually, I tried it when I got home, and at this point it gives me too much room.  So I might just need to wear my pants unbuttoned for a bit longer before I'm ready for the belt thing. 

Week 21 - A Carrot

August 7, 2014

While I continue to post my "Hidden Baby Chronicles," from here on out I also need to post my weekly updates on time.  Ok, so this one is a week late, but I gotta get back on track somehow.  So excuse the confusion of old and new for just a little while longer here...



Photo Thoughts: Looking rather tired here.  Also, hopefully soon my baby bump will pop out more than my butt does.  Haha :-) 

How I'm Feeling: Same old thing here- still feel really good, still thankful to feel so good.  I'm also still riding the high of finding out that Baby H is a BOY (full recap of that fun day coming soon)!  Things definitely feel a lot less abstract now that I can start to try and envision a baby boy. 

Baby/Bump: Supposedly baby is the size of a pomegranate this week.  But until someone can produce for me this mythical 10.5 inch pomegranate, I'm not buying it.  So despite the picture below, I went with a carrot (length-wise) for this week's produce comparison. 

As far as my bump goes, I think I finally "popped" this week!  FINALLY.  It's like Baby H just wanted to wait until everyone knew he was a HE before he started showing evidence of his existence.  Or something.  It's still nothing all that impressive, as I can still get by in looser clothing without it poking through.  But if I wear anything tight, you can definitely see the bump.  David pointed out this week that my belly actually seems to protrude more when I am laying down than when I am standing up.  Which seems a little strange to me, I guess he is defying gravity?... Or maybe he is more stretched out when I'm upright and likes to curl up when I lay down.  Who knows.  It's pretty wild though. 

The bump is especially prominent from the "above view."  Not that I was running that fast or anything, but the belly kept bumping into the little handle bar... sorry baby.

Bump from the side

 

Excuse the bare belly and messy room, but see how much more it protrudes when I'm horizontal?  Also, it is lopsided to the right. Scoot over please, baby boy.

Symptoms: Still with the acne, but I talked to the doc about it at my 20 week appointment, and he cleared me to use some topical medication, so hopefully that will help. 

Weight: I honestly forgot to weigh myself this week.  Oh darn...

What I'm Stressing About/Worries: Finding a place to live.  Our lease is up September 13, and we have officially turned in our move-out notice... without a place to move TO.  There is a lot on the rental market right now, but things are just moving so quickly.  We found a place we loved last week, and we thought we moved quickly in getting an application in, but somehow someone else got theirs in before ours, and we lost the house.  Back to the drawing boards... send some positive house-hunting vibes our way if you think of it. 

Sleep: Sleep is the best.  I really will be so sad if/when I start to have trouble sleeping.  I'm still getting by without a pregnancy pillow, and I'm still managing to somehow do a modified stomach sleep.  However, with my belly now on its way to large and in charge status, I'm not sure that will last much longer. 

Exercise: Still trying to squeeze in 4-5 workouts a week.  And my Wednesday Zumba class is something I look forward to all week.  I can't help but wonder how much longer before I will look absolutely ridiculous doing some of those moves with a huge belly... not that I didn't always look ridiculous doing any of the moves ;-) 

Movement: Still a few suspicious "gas bubble" sensations.  I'm skeptical that I'm actually feeling movement though.  Plus, my doctor confirmed that I do still have an anterior placenta, and he said that it probably won't be moving at this point.  So that probably means that it will be a bit longer than most people before I feel movement since there is essentially an extra layer of padding between the baby and my belly. 

Boy or Girl: A sweet baby BOY!!!  I still can't believe it!

Milestones: I'm now in the second half of this pregnancy.  We found out that Baby H is a BOY.  Aside from finding out the sex at the ultrasound, my doctor confirmed at my 20 week follow-up appointment that everything in the ultrasound was normal and developing just fine!  Oh, and I wore my first pair of maternity jeans.  That's a milestone, I think. 

Highlights of the Week: Of course the biggest highlight of the week was our ultrasound appointment.  There's nothing like seeing your baby moving around and looking healthy in there.  It was such a relief just in that first couple minutes when the ultrasound tech searched for the baby and found him pretty much immediately.  And it was such an amazing surprise to find out that we are having a sweet baby BOY.  I'm going to have a SON!  Crazy...

{Hidden Baby Chronicles} 9 Weeks - An Olive/Grape

May 15, 2014

Apparently I have just entered the beginning of my 3rd month of pregnancy?  What?!  That seems impossible- I don't think that's right. This week I celebrated my first Mother's Day as an "almost mom."  That is also wild.  David was sweet enough to get me a Mother's Day card, but it's hard to consider myself a mother at this point.  Next year, when I hopefully have a near five month old, then yes, I will fully ring in my first Mother's Day with all the bells and whistles.

Left: major bloat hiding under that maxi dress - Center: Grape! - Right: Funny "Mom Jeans" Mother's Day card

Photo Thoughts: Again with the flowy tops/dresses.  The pregnancy bloat thing is real.  And I'm just not really willing to showcase my pregnancy gut.  When I get something that actually resembles a real deal baby bump instead of a beer gut, I will for sure show it off. 

How I'm Feeling:  Still really good.  Still really freaks me out...

Baby/Bump: This week our baby is the size of a green olive.  Olives happen to be one of my least favorite foods, so I opted to consult an alternative website that instead compared my baby's size to a grape.  This was much more acceptable to me.  Supposedly now this little grape is no longer an embryo, but now a fetus.  Basically that means that all of the major body systems are established and from here on out it's just growing and fine-tuning things.  Isn't that crazy that something the size of a grape could have all of its basic human functions/structures already?!  Pretty wild...

Symptoms: As I mentioned above, very few... at least, very few of the unpleasant ones.  I've noticed that in the evenings (around dinner time and after), I have some very vague feelings of nausea.  Nothing serious, but I tend to sit down to dinner and whatever is in front of me just doesn't seem very appealing.  I get most of it down without any problem, but I'm basically just not too interested in eating by that time of day.  Still having some freaky weird dreams.  And still having to get up once a night to pee. Oh, and bloat.  Lots of bloat.  My clothes are definitely getting uncomfortable, and I get that "Thanksgiving day, need to unbutton my pants feeling" quite often.  
 
Weight: +2.5 El Beez

What I'm Anticipating: Already getting very anxious and impatient for my next OB appointment at 11 weeks.  With my lack of typical pregnancy symptoms, it's hard to feel like I'm actually pregnant.  So I'm looking forward to some reassurance when we get to see our little grape on the ultrasound again!

What I'm Stressing About/Worries: Broken record here... just worrying about the possibility of miscarrying.  I can really get way too into my head about it, and I'm quickly able to convince myself that my lack of symptoms absolutely must mean something is wrong.  It's a total head game.  Oh, and as much as I tell myself to stay away from the pregnancy forums, I get sucked in and just can't stop reading the horror stories sometimes.  I need to stop that!

Diet/Cravings/Aversions: None really.  And I seem to be doing better in the evenings as far as things not being appealing to me at dinner time. 

Sleep: Great- no problems there, and I hope it stays that way.  Still getting up once per night to use the bathroom, still having crazy dreams.  Oh, and I don't think I've mentioned before how much of a struggle it has become to pull myself out of bed in the mornings.  I've never been a morning person, but I've never had this much trouble actually getting out of bed.  It's a real struggle now!

Exercise: Still sticking strong to my 5-6 days a week workout schedule.  Haven't had any problems with this yet, but I have noticed that my endurance for running has really decreased already.  I can't believe it was only a little over a month ago that I ran a ten mile race.  That sounds impossible to me now!

Movement: WAY too early for this.  Although supposedly, the baby has begun wiggling his/her arms and legs already.  Crazy!

Boy or Girl: Also WAY too early for this.  But yes, we will find out when that time comes.

Milestones: First mother's Day... kind of.  Graduated to month three of pregnancy (?).

Highlights of the Week: The highlight of this week was most definitely telling my parents that they are going to be grandparents!  Here's how it went down:

On Saturday, I told my good friend Sarah that I was pregnant.  That in itself was a fun highlight of the week!  My idea was to have her be in on the reveal since my parents live in Phoenix, and I couldn't be there in person to give them the news myself.  So I had already sent Sarah a package that included my mom's "Mother's Day present" and Sarah was going to stop by on Sunday and deliver it to her.  I had some excuse about how I didn't have time to send it to them on time, so I asked Sarah to pick something up for me and run it by the house... so they were expecting her that day.  The gift included: a onesie with "I Love My Grandparents" on it, and a grandmother's journal with cute prompts for a grandmother to share stories of her life with a grandchild.  I got a grandfather's one for my dad, too.  THIS is what I got, if you're curious.  There was also a card that the lovely Emily from Live A Charmed Life designed for me.  I put a copy of the ultrasound photo in the card, too. 

I was for some reason so incredibly nervous about telling them.  I think a lot of it was excitement, but there were definitely some nerves too- not sure why, but that feeling definitely didn't last long.  Sarah texted me when she pulled up to my parents house, and it just killed me that I couldn't be there, but I was waiting in anticipation for the call that I knew would come soon now... and the video that I begged Sarah to take. 

It went SO well, and my parents- especially my mom- were SO surprised.  I really don't think they had any idea whatsoever.  Sarah did such a great job, and I honestly can't imagine anything better- aside from me being there of course.  She got the best video of the whole thing, and I LOVE seeing my mom's reaction.  It's so sweet to see her shock and excitement!  See for yourself:

And here's a fun selfie that Sarah took with my parents after the big reveal:

It was so fun to talk to them afterwards.  Lots of excitement and questions and squealing!  I had to give a quick little lecture to them about how they were not to tell anyone else until we gave them the go ahead. 

Silly me forgot to take a photo BEFORE I wrapped the gifts... pregnancy brain... But below is a fuzzy post-opening picture my mom sent me

 

 

Future Grandma!

That reveal made things feel very real!  We're still not ready to tell anyone else yet, but this definitely made me excited for when that time comes! 

{Hidden Baby Chronicles} Week 8 - A Raspberry

May 8, 2014

This was a very exciting week.  We had our first OB appointment and got to see our little peanut in an ultrasound- but more on that later.  Things are getting real here, people! 

I think it's about time that I switch over to one of those more standard pregnancy survey forms for the rest of these weekly updates... now that more is actually starting to happen with this pregnancy.  So here goes:

Photo Thoughts:  Full disclosure.  Basically in every weekly photo so far, you might have noticed I've been wearing loose-fitting, flowy tops.  If I had instead chosen a t-shirt, you would for sure be seeing some bloat that could definitely be mistaken for a bump.  Which is exactly why I've been avoiding wearing clothes like that so far.  I'm definitely experiencing that lovely symptom of pregnancy bloat, and I'm not ready to show that off.  Once something more "bump-like" appears, I'll put it on display. 

How I'm Feeling: Pretty great still.  A very small (minuscule) part of me kind of wishes I was experiencing some of those miserable 1st trimester symptoms that a supposed 3/4 of preggos experience.  But I mostly am just glad to (so far... knock on wood) be missing out on those lovely things. 

Baby/Bump:  This week our baby is the size of a raspberry and is growing about a millimeter a day- grow baby, grow!  The best news though, is that his/her tail has finally disappeared- phew.  That would've been weird...

 



Symptoms:  As I mentioned above, very few... at least, very few of the unpleasant ones.  I've noticed that in the evenings (around dinner time and after), I have some very vague feelings of nausea.  Nothing serious, but I tend to sit down to dinner and whatever is in front of me just doesn't seem very appealing.  I get most of it down without any problem, but I'm basically just not too interested in eating by that time of day.  The cramps that I was experiencing the past few weeks have become less frequent, but still in the early mornings or evening if they do show up.  If I get up too quickly from sitting, I get very dizzy and see stars- so that's fun.  Still having some freaky weird dreams.  Oh, and it's official- I can't sleep through the night any more without getting up once to pee.  I always thought that that happened later in pregnancies when the baby was bigger and taking up bladder room, but apparently, it's common in the first trimester, too. 

Weight: + 2.  This regular weight gain will take some getting used to... vain, I know, but still.  And it doesn't help that I was up about ten pounds (I blame it on Australia) from where I am most comfortable when I got pregnant. 

What I'm Anticipating: I'm so excited for the Mother's Day pregnancy reveal that I have planned for my mom and dad!  Can't wait- I'm almost positive they have NO idea!

What I'm Stressing About/Worries: Not too much.  Seeing that strong heartbeat blinking away on the ultrasound provided me with a huge amount of reassurance. 

Cravings/Aversions:  Nothing specific that I crave or can't stand.  Just a general "indifference" to anything food-related in the evenings. 

Sleep: No problems sleeping at all!  Just the new once per night wake up to use the bathroom, but I am always able to fall right back asleep. 

Exercise: Still sticking strong to my 5-6 days a week workout schedule.  Haven't had any problems with this yet, but I have noticed that my endurance for running has really decreased already. 

Movement: WAY too early for this.  Although supposedly, the baby has begun wiggling his/her arms and legs already.  Crazy!

Boy or Girl: Also WAY too early for this.  But yes, we will find out when that time comes.

Milestones: I bought my first baby onesie this past weekend- it was a "I Love My Grandparents" onesie for my parents that I'll give to my mom on Mother's Day.  It was exciting to buy something cute and tiny that my baby will wear someday... but I also got very overwhelmed in the store and left quickly. 

Highlights of the Week: Our First Prenatal/OB Appointment!  I was the stereotypical uptight first time pregnant girl with the two page typed list of questions for my doctor (this was my first time meeting him).  I was worried that I would have a hard time finding a doctor that I liked and whose philosophies lined up with what I was looking for.  But I really lucked out!  My OB spent a good two hours with us, he answered all of my questions thoroughly- never once making me feel hurried, and he is pretty much right in line with what I was looking for as far as philosophies on interventions, delivery, etc.  Huge relief! 

They ran me through the typical screenings- vitals, pee in a cup, blood work, medical history, etc.  And then it was finally time for the much anticipated ultrasound!  I actually wasn't 100% sure that we would get to do this at the first appointment, but I was hopeful.  I had a major case of butterflies in my stomach as he rolled the machine into the room and got things set up.  He mentioned that at this point, it was still somewhat early in the pregnancy and he isn't always able to detect the heartbeat at this point but not to be alarmed if that was the case.  However, it was probably less than a minute before he found the baby AND what he called "a very strong heartbeat."  We didn't have the machine that let us hear it, but we could sure see it flickering away.  Of course, I teared up when I saw our baby alive and well... and when I saw the big smile spread across David's face.  I was surprised that I wasn't a crying mess though.  Just a few tears in my eyes and what I'm sure was a huge, goofy smile.  The doctor measured the baby at about 1.50 cm. and said that that was right on track.  This was such an amazing experience, and I'm so glad David was there with me.  It's absolutely incredible to know that a little life is growing in my belly... and in a short seven months, he/she will be in our arms!  I'm sure this is a moment I will always remember.  This made things very real, and now I am even more excited! 

{Hidden Baby Chronicles} 7 Weeks - A Blueberry

May 1, 2014

We are moving on up in the baby/food size comparison, and this week baby is the size of a blueberry!  According to my various sources (The Bump app, "What To Expect..."), little blueberry is growing 100 new brain cells per minute this week, and is even starting to sprout some stubby looking arms and legs! 

Just like last week, I felt a sense of relief just to be another week further along.  I still can't shake this nagging sense of worry that something might go wrong.  So at this point, it's just a big relief to get further along and put each week behind me.  I do know that I should focus on being more positive and enjoying this experience, and I am trying, but I think I just may be this way for a few more weeks though- regardless. 

Exciting Moment Of the Week:
I've started to plan my "big reveal" for telling my parents.  David was supportive of me wanting to tell just my parents after our first OB appointment next week- so I will tell them on Mother's Day!  I can't wait!  And I'm so thankful that David was understanding of my desire to share our news with just my parents at that point, since if something bad does happen (God forbid), I know it will be important for me to have their support.  I think we will hold off until I'm out of my first trimester (about 12 weeks) to tell the rest of our families and slowly start letting friends in on the big news.

Symptoms:
I've been experiencing pretty consistent cramping each morning and evening.  Sometimes it's pretty uncomfortable, but I keep reading that it is normal, so I'm not too worried about it.  If nothing else, it's kind of nice to have some sort of sign that "things are happening" in there.  When I read that my uterus has already doubled in size, I guess it makes sense that I'd be feeling lots of stretching/cramping in there!  I had one morning this week where I was getting ready for work and suddenly felt very hot and clammy and had a severe wave of nausea wash over me.  I spent some time hugging the toilet thinking, "oh no, here we go..."  But I cranked the AC on high, tried to force down some ice water and felt much better after about 20 minutes.  So far, that is still just a one time occurrence.  Let's hope it stays that way, because that 20 minutes was not fun! 

Epiphany of the Week: Earlier in the week, I went to my favorite paper store to stock up on mother's day cards for all the moms/grandmothers in my life.  At checkout, the cashier asked if I was a mom.  I kind of didn't really know how to respond and just stuttered, "... ummmm.... no... not yet..." Of course that made things awkward, and so she just said that she was going to wish me a happy mother's day if I was.  So that got me thinking that I guess this could possibly be considered my first mother's day!  Sure, next year it will all be much more real, but I guess this does still count in some way! 

Center: Holding An Itty Bitty Blueberry



{Hidden Baby Chronicles} 6 Weeks - A Sweet Pea

April 24, 2014

Well as of today, I am officially housing a sweet pea. 

And according to my sources (The Bump and What To Expect When You're Expecting), my little sweet pea apparently already is starting to sprout a nose, eyes, ears, and chin, and cheeks.  How crazy is that?! 

I was pretty excited to get to six weeks... it just seems a little bit more legit/official in the pregnancy progress department to me.  I mentioned to my friend Kim that I hate to feel this way, but I really am kind of just wishing away/hoping these next 4-6 weeks or so just speed by.  I still just have so much anxiety and fear about this very "sensitive stage" of pregnancy.  I know the chances are much more in favor of things proceeding just as they should, but I just have this fear that this might not "stick."  She reassured me though, and gave me some of the best advice/words of wisdom that I've heard.  She said, "your body knows exactly what to do."  For some reason that just made me feel a lot better.  It's so true.  There is nothing really that I can do to control what will or won't happen at this point. So I just need to trust that my body knows what to do and relax for crying out loud. 

Exciting Moment Of the Week:  Telling my friend Kayli the news.  I think I really surprised her.  She is one of the few (we're talking like 2 people) that knew we were "trying," so I wanted to let her in on the news.  I Facetimed her and held up a can of Caffeine Free Diet Dr. Pepper thinking she might realize the significance of a DDP-obsessed person like me switching to (gasp, the horror) caffeine free.  She didn't quite catch on to that, so I just ran to the bathroom and held up the pee stick.  Then it clicked.  It was so fun to see her reaction, and so nice to have someone else to spill the beans to... I've been bursting to talk about it this week.

On My Mind:  The usual worries about something going wrong (broken record, I know).  Also, I'm so anxious for my first doctor appointment at 8 weeks.  It's so weird to have so few symptoms, that I start to doubt that I'm actually pregnant sometimes.  I have two pregnancy tests left, and I have to resist the urge to use them each day, just for some extra reassurance.  Those things don't last forever though, and I'd hate to see them go to waste ;-), so I plan to do another test/calm myself down at week 7, and then maybe the day before my appointment.  Psychotic/neurotic, I know.  Sue me. 

Pregnant Moment:  None really.  Oh, except I went to Easter brunch with my aunt and cousins and everyone had mimosas.  I hadn't really prepped for this, so I ordered one and took maybe two small sips (again, sue me), and then just hoped no one would really notice that I didn't finish it.  Didn't seem to be an issue at all! Phew!  It was tough to restrain my impulse to just down it though...

It's also surreal to begin reading my new "What To Expect..." book.  I can't believe this book applies to me now!  It's been really interesting to learn more about what is happening with my body at each stage.

Why yes, I guess I am...

Symptoms: As I mentioned before, not many.  I've heard and read that morning sickness often kicks in around 6-8 weeks, so I'm really hoping I can avoid that lovely experience.  So far the only real symptoms I have are some mild cramping... a little worse this week than last, some other not so lovely digestive issues, and some enhancement in the chest region (!), and starting to feel that "first trimester exhaustion." I don't think mine is as bad as what I've read about so far, but throughout the day I seriously cannot stop yawning.  I feel like the rudest person ever.  A co-worker actually called me out on it the other day.  Oops.  I'm so not a napper though (maybe I'll get there soon though?), but I have noticed that I need to lay down for about 10 minutes when I get home from work, and although I still stay up way too late, I can barely hold my eyes open at my usual time anymore, so maybe my bedtime needs to be adjusted.  Oh, one more thing- I've been having some wacky dreams.  That's been going on for 2-3 weeks though.  I can't really remember too many details of my dreams, but I wake up feeling just kind of creeped out by whatever just happened in my dreams.  Strange.